Things I Need For My Apartment

Small area rug for just inside the door
Wall hooks for jackets
Shoe rack
Small table for keys/mail
Couch DESPERATE
Chairs
Coffee table
Throw pillows for couch/chairs
Artwork DESPERATE
Dishes-plates, glasses,mugs, bowls, serving platters DESPERATE
Trash/recycling baskets
Pots/pans DESPERATE
Oven mitts
Dish towels
Mixing bowls DESPERATE
Cutting boards
Toaster
Ice cube tray
Hand mixers
Can opener (wall) DESPERATE
Sharp knives DESPERATE
Serving spoons
Area rugs
Shower curtain
Shower caddy
Bath mats
Towels (blue black brown and red)
Mattress and box spring
Sheets/comforter DESPERATE
Hangers DESPERATE
Curtains/blinds
Flashlights DESPERATE
Candles
Fans/A.C.

Shit List November 13 2014

1. Stephen Harper
2. The Fords
3. Jay Lomax
4. NCFST
5. Superintendent
6. Toronto Police 22 Division
7. St Joseph's Health Centre
8. Aboriginal Affairs
9. #YWCAToronto
10. Dr Eric Hoskins

Unexpected YWCAToronto visit

I arrived home today, November 6, 2014, to find a YWCA Toronto envelope at my door. On October 30, last week, I was hospitalized for a meltdown. The YWCA responded only today!! A week later!!
Before sharing the loveliness of the letter, there's a few facts you must know.

1. YWCAToronto has a habit of telling me the program rules then breaks them and upon being called on them they say they are sorry for breaking MY rules. One of which we both agreed was not showing up to see me unexpectedly.
2. Their only responsibility is making rental payments. The most asked question I get was what do they do for me??
3. They have been denied entry to my building to see me. On more than one occasion.

Hi Nadia,
We were made aware of recent concern regarding your mental health and we would really like to connect with you in person to help you access support services and to go over the extreme clean options.
I'm gonna stop here.
1. WHO BREACHED MY PERSONAL STRUGGLES WITHOUT MY PERMISSION
2. NOW AFTER A HOSPITALIZATION, THEY SUDDENLY WANT TO HELP GET SUPPORTS
3. WHY DOES IT TAKE FOR ME TO EXPERIENCE  A HOSPITALIZATION FOR THE IDIOTS TO DO SOMETHING
Back to the letter.
We are trying to respect your wish that we do not show up unannounced but due to recent events (MELTDOWN HOSPITALIZATIONS ARE EVENTS NOW?????) it was necessary today.
Would you be available to meet on Wednesday November 12 at 12 noon at YWCA Toronto (again I'd be catering to them)
Please email or call to let us know if this time works for you or to suggest a time that does work. (They know I have no phone and this is catering to them)
Nadia I have also included some information on the Gerstein Centre an organization that helps people who are experiencing mental health crisis. The crisis line is open 24hrs a day for support. YOU ARE ALSO ALWAYS WELCOME TO CALL US FOR SUPPORT. (1.ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME????????????????? 2. THEY KNOW MY HISTORY WITH GERSTEIN)
THE PROGRAM IS MINISTRY OF HEALTH RENT SUPPLEMENT PROGRAM

ASHLEY NELSON
416-923-8454 x 437
80 Woodlawn Ave East
Toronto Ontario
M4T 1C1
anelson@ywcatoronto.org
www.ywcatoronto.org

October 30, 2014

I sent a few tweets to Ontario's Health Minister Dr Eric Hoskins that were suicide related and upon leaving City Hall, feeling calmer and not as hungry, I arrived home to find a police cruiser outside my building. They were there for me. They received the call from the ministry regarding my tweets. After I tried unsuccessfully to convince them I was ok, which they weren't buying, I grew increasingly frustrated. After a few minutes I went upstairs to my unit and smashed some plates. Because I was not happy. The original plan was to go home, and bathe. But the Minister and Toronto Police interfered which only added to my stress. That's when they came up and demanded I go with them to the hospital which I attempted to refuse so they restrained me ignoring my screams they were hurting my head which they later said they never touched it. Next thing I knew I was being handcuffed and escorted to the back of the cruiser. I managed to pull the cuffs off first then they tightened them and left marks. They had told me they'd remove the cuffs when I got in the cruiser. That didn't happen. They told me they'd remove them after I was checked in. That didn't happen. They noticed I'd calmed down but waited until I grew increasingly impatient before setting a new time which I took as an intimidation tactic. So I played along. I probably shouldn't have because I took it to a whole new level of discrimination. The cops also said it was my choice if I wanted to leave once I was registered. I was then escorted to the mental health emergency services unit part of the hospital. Where again I was not happy about having to stay. I kept fighting the staff (scratched 1 guard, bit another, kicked a cop and grabbed the other cop's parts) so I was placed in another restraint and this time hospital security joined the staff in holding me down to strap me up. Each time I tried to see what was happening, the hospital security guard who happened to be black, would put his hand over my face adding pressure to the tube going down the side of my neck on the same side as my shunt. I tried telling them about it but they said it wasn't hurting it. Then twice the nurse strapped my stomach area so tight making it hard to breathe which security agreed with. The second time she took longer to fix it because she didn't believe me.
Now. Keeping in mind there were 2 male police officers and 2 male security officers and only one female nurse dealing with me a person struggling with mental health especially PTSD and had long experienced great amounts of distress toward men. In trying to calm me down, the next thing I remember is the guard undoing my pants and when I tried to look to see what was going on, he slammed his hand shoving my face down and put his hand over my face so I couldn't see. From the little I could see, my pants were undone and the men in uniform were over top of me. Imagine how, if you were me, a 31 year old First Nations woman with no family or support, what that moment must've felt like for me.
Yea.
That is why Health Minister Dr Eric Hoskins took most of the spots on my ShitList last week.